Monday, February 29, 2016

Without fanfare and with little ceremony

Yesterday was not an uncommon day in the Upper Valley. The sun shone brightly, the wind blew with a vengeance and it rained, all at once.

I had been waiting for the perfect day, but perfect days don’t always come. I had wanted one of those blizzards when tree limbs crash to the virgin white ground and the world is silent and full of hope. Rereading that last sentence, I understand why perfect days don’t come. Sometimes our visions of ideal aren’t realistic; they will never materialize. So we move on and do what must be done.

I spread the ashes of Hazel and Claude and Ralph and Trixie and Tillie to the wind. For the dogs, this was their home. It is what they knew. They had to remain and be part of the world that they created. Tillie just went along for a ride with the big boys.

Over two decades of joy and happiness, of love and pain tossed to the gusts. They will be forever in my heart, but come on; it was time they got off the kitchen shelf.

If this don't scare the peewadens out of you


Nothing will!!!

Saturday, February 27, 2016

A rambling message

It hasn’t been a bad day. Actually ran into Hood River and did some errands… a number of errands. It was a full morning.

I came home and took all my new meds.  Can you spell “wasted”? I guess they are sending me back into the Paleolithic stage of my existence. Wow, this is cool!

And I got a letter from Social Security. I am medically cleared, with a retro date of 9/3/14. Soon I will be rich!

I qualify for “Compassionate Allowance”. They won’t dawdle. Playing the “Cancer” card to the max!

Thursday, February 25, 2016

Oh, oh, oh

And I forgot to mention.

I had my caudal injection a week ago and I think it is helping. Could just be my wild imagination, but I really think I am getting around better. It ain’t perfect, but hey, at this point I will take what I can get!

The day after the day before

All in all, it isn’t too bad. One of the side effects of one of the drugs that I take to take care of the side effects of chemo is that I get wired. So although I am tired as hell, I can’t sleep.  None of the horrible side effects of chemo have kicked in, so I slowly get some things done! I am really pretty okay.

I am taking it easy today, because I want to go out tomorrow and have lunch with friends. And do some other errands while I am out. Hopefully, I will feet up to it and not overdo it. Keep some strength for when it all hits.

And Tommy seems better. He is to the point of being obnoxious again. I am happy, in my own strange way!

Tuesday, February 23, 2016

Tomorrow is my second chemo treatment.

I feel like a convict being sentenced to jail; a common criminal being forced to pay for his crimes. The cold permeating my bones; the unbreakable exhaustion; the heinous sores on my lips, in my mouth and down my throat; the rash covering my torso and the itch that can’t be scratched: these are the joys to come. Throw in some delightful nausea and you know it’s going to be such fun.

And I have this morbid fear that I have been lied to. There was excess hair in the bottom of the tub when I showered and when I combed my moustache, too many hairs fell to the counter top. Cursed is the poison that takes my pride.

Fuck, I don’t want to lose my hair again. I don’t look good bald!

Monday, February 22, 2016

Another morning in paradise


Actually, the colors were much more beautiful than they appear. My photography skills rank right up there with my singing skills, obviously.