A struggle

 For some reason, the last few days have been difficult for me.

I have come out before that I was dealing from depression. I don't know if this is just depression worsening, or if there is more. And don't worry, I have no suicidal tendences.

Okay, first I came out that I was gay, then I came out that I suffered from depression, now I coming out about my alcoholism. I'm not sure what way to go. Richard told me his first six months of sobriety were the worst times of his life.

I don't know how much time is left. But I know one day the boot is going to drop. 

Why not pickle myself in pleasure!